2012 Change – Breath walking out of the Mind / Ego loop

Mind = thoughts, feelings and emotions

Within thoughts, feelings and emotions we are actually busy charging the unconscious mind and everything that exist in this world: poverty, rape, murder, the government system, military, etc..

Dairy – As I am walking the process of walking out of the mind into the physical – I am at the stage that I can bring my awareness of breath quite effectively back to self. Within the last year and a half where I started working in the matrix in a job with hundreds / thousands of people – this was quite a challenge I liked to make. Where I was still reacting (inside my mind or outside) to peoples comments / remarks – I found myself today to be able to stay in breath or to be able to bring myself back to myself in breath awareness.

All within the self realisation that what I may think / thoughts of people – I am because all is one and equal. I breathe. I will do what is best for all. The Solution of Life.

I do not allow myself to act within self interest.

The same here in the house with the male being I am  living with. Although I said to him when I was projecting my mindshit unto him that I am DOING that – I could not stop myself, because it was not silent in me. Yesterday after I completed DIP lesson 6 I got some pointers from Maite from Desteni which was just to the point I needed to ‘hear’ (here:). I was clouded /blurred by the assumption that I had to get going some sort of a communication with him as myself. So – the word ‘had to’ here reveals to me I had this overlaid myself and that he reflected back to me my own thoughts / emotions – within his physical / emotional body movements that I was not self effective breathing in anuway what so ever – yet I could not put my finger on my emotional reactions. Till yesterday! I had judged his /my fear and anger. Till here and no further –  I do not allow and accept myself to experience emotional turmoil within me and project myself unto another being as these thoughts and emotion are harmful to us as the whole of humanity. I am not my thoughts and emotions!

Therefore I see a remarkeble change within myself.

Clearing the mind through self forgiveness within self honesty and living self corrective statements to be able to learn to see the physical reality – the only reality that is real – no more clouded by / with the deceptive mind.

No mind is real.

Communication in equality and oneness? – Facing my Mind’s Energy Walls

The CON of conscience

A ‘reminder’ for those walking Relationships/Agreements — to realise that reaction as “experiences” within self, is SELF-created; and to ‘flag-point’ the tendency of blaming/projecting and accumulating/building reactions / experiences to/towards one’s partner that manifest unnecessary conflict and separation.

Sunette Destonian Spies

Writing out copied patterns: As I went upstairs into the room where the male human being was at the laptop, he was just trying to close the windows he was browsing for the games he was after and busy to hide this, because he knows / I know it generates polarity friction inside. This is the mind consciousness game we play here for over six years – I crehate war ‘n’ peace on his gaming issue, he hides it – so we are stuck within this cycle. I can no longer accept this gaming of us and opened ‘communication’ – explaining him that the ‘too-muchness of energy’ he is experiencing comes thereof, of playing games and having thoughts, reactions, emotions. So – I was in this rant that he /we can not support self within these ‘energyfucks’ – we shunt within our mind energy walls, he going into his pattern – me into my pattern as a ‘teacher’. I must stop my SELF creation –  I step out of this perpetuum mobile. Then what? Do I leave him up to his computer games? Is that supporting him as myself? I will let go of all control, because it’s all about the money what we currently exist of and ass.

“Money represents the energies as emotions and feelings we allow to fluctuate inside us,

while thinking that we are these energies–thus we think money is the world and all that life is about–fascinating.”  – Bernard Poolman

What is obvious is that I can not move another to realise common sense – I  must realise common sense self here – but when is it that I am communicating in common sense as equality and oneness with a being? Opening up about anything – not allowing and accepting secrets to exist within and without the mind. Wether it’s with myself, the being here or another being is all equal. How do I communicate within supporting and assisting each other as equal and one? Without going in my mind.

I realise I am still quite in the dark within this one. Patience with others as myself! It’s what we all have to learn within understanding who we are as oneness and equality of Life.

Com-munication – com meaning with. But how I speak to him was/ is to him.

What is it I don’t (want to) see here ? Myself as the mind – refracted.

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Next day – some self honesty here Sylvie what I see in an other is what I see in me. It’s the secrectly stuff that is being reflected to me here – I secrete my fear.

‘Inequality’ is: Where One ‘Allow’, in ‘Your’-‘Mind’ – ‘Secret Thoughts’, About ‘Others’ = That is ‘Deception’

Getting over myself through Self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to get in a mental state whenever I see H. playing games in stead of realising I am playing games with the physical within getting into my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear for my own survival whenever I see him fucking up himself in stead of realising I am fucking up myself as the physical within reacting to his gaming.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react to the pictures I see in this world.

Self corrective statement.

Whenever I see H. playing games – I stop, I breath – I do not accept or allow myself to get worked up over the fact what I see H. doing, thinking and believing that if I am telling H. that ‘energy’ harms us I would be assisting and supporting. In stead – I face my current reality and take responsbility for whatever that is bothering me.

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Equal Money — Freedom for All as One