Communication in equality and oneness? – Facing my Mind’s Energy Walls

The CON of conscience

A ‘reminder’ for those walking Relationships/Agreements — to realise that reaction as “experiences” within self, is SELF-created; and to ‘flag-point’ the tendency of blaming/projecting and accumulating/building reactions / experiences to/towards one’s partner that manifest unnecessary conflict and separation.

Sunette Destonian Spies

Writing out copied patterns: As I went upstairs into the room where the male human being was at the laptop, he was just trying to close the windows he was browsing for the games he was after and busy to hide this, because he knows / I know it generates polarity friction inside. This is the mind consciousness game we play here for over six years – I crehate war ‘n’ peace on his gaming issue, he hides it – so we are stuck within this cycle. I can no longer accept this gaming of us and opened ‘communication’ – explaining him that the ‘too-muchness of energy’ he is experiencing comes thereof, of playing games and having thoughts, reactions, emotions. So – I was in this rant that he /we can not support self within these ‘energyfucks’ – we shunt within our mind energy walls, he going into his pattern – me into my pattern as a ‘teacher’. I must stop my SELF creation –  I step out of this perpetuum mobile. Then what? Do I leave him up to his computer games? Is that supporting him as myself? I will let go of all control, because it’s all about the money what we currently exist of and ass.

“Money represents the energies as emotions and feelings we allow to fluctuate inside us,

while thinking that we are these energies–thus we think money is the world and all that life is about–fascinating.”  – Bernard Poolman

What is obvious is that I can not move another to realise common sense – I  must realise common sense self here – but when is it that I am communicating in common sense as equality and oneness with a being? Opening up about anything – not allowing and accepting secrets to exist within and without the mind. Wether it’s with myself, the being here or another being is all equal. How do I communicate within supporting and assisting each other as equal and one? Without going in my mind.

I realise I am still quite in the dark within this one. Patience with others as myself! It’s what we all have to learn within understanding who we are as oneness and equality of Life.

Com-munication – com meaning with. But how I speak to him was/ is to him.

What is it I don’t (want to) see here ? Myself as the mind – refracted.

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Next day – some self honesty here Sylvie what I see in an other is what I see in me. It’s the secrectly stuff that is being reflected to me here – I secrete my fear.

‘Inequality’ is: Where One ‘Allow’, in ‘Your’-‘Mind’ – ‘Secret Thoughts’, About ‘Others’ = That is ‘Deception’

Getting over myself through Self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to get in a mental state whenever I see H. playing games in stead of realising I am playing games with the physical within getting into my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear for my own survival whenever I see him fucking up himself in stead of realising I am fucking up myself as the physical within reacting to his gaming.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to react to the pictures I see in this world.

Self corrective statement.

Whenever I see H. playing games – I stop, I breath – I do not accept or allow myself to get worked up over the fact what I see H. doing, thinking and believing that if I am telling H. that ‘energy’ harms us I would be assisting and supporting. In stead – I face my current reality and take responsbility for whatever that is bothering me.

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Blood Rush / Fear on crowded Platform and Train (of thoughts)

This is a re-occuring pattern in my life not yet completely removed from my Mind Consciousness system of allowances and acceptances. Today when I went home*) from work it was right in the middle of rush hour, because I had a shift till half past four. (I shifted – I was not here, not constant). On the platform I allowed and accepted myself the crowd to kind of suddenly overwhelm me. This was very assisting and revealing to me to realise that I was ‘away’ within my mind and not here as self awareness as breath as one and equal. It was not just me within the crowd (within the mind) but also within me the connection I made within and as the knowledge and information that this world is in serious problems the here and now and the next ten years – as to be seen. So ‘good old systems’ of fear to enslave me / mankind to the mind to feed global consciousness system. Unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become overwhelmed by the crowd on the platform in stead of me realising that it is the overcrowdedness within my mind consciousness system to overwhelm myself as breath.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be taken away as breath.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear people panic in stead of realising it’s me who is panicking within my mind and not standing one and equal to and a all that is here.

If I do not fear I do not have to think – so I sat on the platform bench and breathed through to stop thinking. After applying Self forgiveness on this point I have to actually live the self corrective statement of and as myself as breath –  this being this month’s DIP assignment as a matter of fact.  After I prepared food and sat at the dinner table eating here, I had to speak aloud “Delete” to delete the picture within my mind of the crowdedness of people. This took three times to delete to become more stabilized within myself.

The rush is the rush of information / energy within and as the mind. Thoughts create the energy for the matrix to exist.

I remember breathing trouble in public transport from when I moved to the city of Utrecht in my begin twenties within having to take the bus in case my bike was broke. Usually I avoided the bus to university as this was a busy line. If I had to then take a crowded bus I would stand in the middle to move along with the bus’s movements to be able to stay within my body / breath. This linking back to my childhood years where my brother and me were stuffed into the car for long rides not being able to get out (of the mind that is to say). I have suppressed myself through the connecting emotions and will deconstruct this thought/memory/emotion pattern within the Desteni courses and change.  To resurrect myself from the grave of memories.

Also I have been locked up in the toilet a lot by my father for often half a day. This must be correlating with my experiences in secluded spaces.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to suppress myself within experiencing emotions inside me.

Also what happened on the platform was a male human being – a platform worker – was circling back and forth, coming quite near and standing staring at me. I did not understand why people do that. Aha I now realise because I do the opposite – looking away – and within this act I create the other polarity. Self dishonesty here. I suddenly wished I had not let my hair down today – I wished to be ‘unattractive’ in that moment in stead of realising I am dishonest with myself – I am not in breath but within the mind.

Work to be done with myself – I realise I have to face my fears and stop within self honesty and self corrective actions, the reality of what I have allowed and accepted myself to become and exist as is not going away by itself.

Through Breathing – Self forgiveness – Self honesty as equal and one as all – Self corrective statements and Writing we can change how we have become within and as mind consciousness systems.

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[*Earth is home]

Practical Desteni – Thought Designs – part 4

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If I am not changing I am in ego

It is impossible to change if I do not stand as all as one as equal for I can then not take responsiblity for all as one.

Last month I was busy with DIP’s Assignment 3 Step-by-Step Self-Forgiveness Worksheet.

After completing it got clear to me that I was ‘stuck’ within applying myself within the tool of self forgiveness. How did that come about? Because in the last couple of months I started applying them from within the starting point of reaction as self-created fear (ego) of ‘maybe missing a SF point’ – so starting them silently within my head and then stop myself within in my mind and start speaking them out aloud in stead of speaking SF aloud immediately. Holy fuckedness. I first calm down, stop the reaction with SF within myself, breathe in and forgive the thought on the outbreath. I did not completely stop this and apply self corrective actions, therefor could not simply walk-through and change. This morning I realised I was caught of in self forgiveness and ‘forgetting’ to simply actually correct and live myself as CHANGE, direct myself to stop walking in that cycle, stop starting SF in the head and direct myself as breath and walk here in self-application. Some points take more breaths… I like change, I am change, I like to stand equal immediately in stead of first reacting and then having to apply SF causae I had a reaction / thought / emotion. Silly.

Along the way I had gotten into the assumption that I had to have pictures and /or emotions to thoughts. That is not allways the case so I read in DIP Lesson 3. So I stop looking for a picture if I don’t see/remember one.

Next Assignment 4 Self corrective statements – that’ll be effective.

We are all patterns – hence, transcending ego and the ability to actually change takes great self-honesty:

A discussion looking into the nature of the human being and our inability to actually change ourselves and this world into something that is of support for self and all life equally.

What is real change? Is your change real or just a facade in secret?

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to go into an automated reaction as self forgivess in stead of stopping myself first to breath here and see what is I am actually doing.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own creation of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own reaction to my mind in stead of me calming myself down first and stopping myself starting SF in the head.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own reaction to my mind in stead of me calming myself down first and breathing through this here.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own reaction to my mind in stead of me remaining here as breath as self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to have gotten myself into the assumption that I had to have pictures and /or emotions to thoughts.

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