All tied up to our preprogrammed existence

All tied up to your views, opinions, ideas – are you uptight? Not a singular idea, thought, opinion will set you free from yourself as the mind. Enslaved to serve the mind consciousness system.

Hanging with strings as thoughts from which generates things as feelings and emotions. A world wide web. How did this preprogrammed existence we are ‘living’ come about? Suggestion is to read The History of Mankind at or watch the video series.

Transcending thoughts /matrix / mind /ego is becoming at ease with yourself as equality and onenesss from within and without.

Self forgiveness is the key to self a tool to cure dis-ease with self —

Self honesty is the key to freedom —

Self correction —

Self direction —

Self Movement

Work this out for yourself – free yourself from the mind consciousness enslavement – join the Desteni group of people!



Stand as one as equal as all to Change Self to change world —

Common sense of the human body —

Research material – mathematically proven —

If I am not changing I am in ego

It is impossible to change if I do not stand as all as one as equal for I can then not take responsiblity for all as one.

Last month I was busy with DIP’s Assignment 3 Step-by-Step Self-Forgiveness Worksheet.

After completing it got clear to me that I was ‘stuck’ within applying myself within the tool of self forgiveness. How did that come about? Because in the last couple of months I started applying them from within the starting point of reaction as self-created fear (ego) of ‘maybe missing a SF point’ – so starting them silently within my head and then stop myself within in my mind and start speaking them out aloud in stead of speaking SF aloud immediately. Holy fuckedness. I first calm down, stop the reaction with SF within myself, breathe in and forgive the thought on the outbreath. I did not completely stop this and apply self corrective actions, therefor could not simply walk-through and change. This morning I realised I was caught of in self forgiveness and ‘forgetting’ to simply actually correct and live myself as CHANGE, direct myself to stop walking in that cycle, stop starting SF in the head and direct myself as breath and walk here in self-application. Some points take more breaths… I like change, I am change, I like to stand equal immediately in stead of first reacting and then having to apply SF causae I had a reaction / thought / emotion. Silly.

Along the way I had gotten into the assumption that I had to have pictures and /or emotions to thoughts. That is not allways the case so I read in DIP Lesson 3. So I stop looking for a picture if I don’t see/remember one.

Next Assignment 4 Self corrective statements – that’ll be effective.

We are all patterns – hence, transcending ego and the ability to actually change takes great self-honesty:

A discussion looking into the nature of the human being and our inability to actually change ourselves and this world into something that is of support for self and all life equally.

What is real change? Is your change real or just a facade in secret?

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to go into an automated reaction as self forgivess in stead of stopping myself first to breath here and see what is I am actually doing.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own creation of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own reaction to my mind in stead of me calming myself down first and stopping myself starting SF in the head.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own reaction to my mind in stead of me calming myself down first and breathing through this here.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear my own reaction to my mind in stead of me remaining here as breath as self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to have gotten myself into the assumption that I had to have pictures and /or emotions to thoughts.

The best gift you can give yourself —

The best gift you can give to all as you —

Research the matter on how we as our minds abuse true self value —

Mess – To deconstruct my Design of Reaction as Polarity Enslavement

Mess age. People think that having thoughts, feelings and emotions is normal. It is NOT – it is forms of possession (‘to have and to hold’). What a mess we hide BEHIND the perfect picture we portray, it looks ‘normal’… but it is completely not true.

We are Here on Earth to learn to understand who we really are as oneness and equality to Birth Life in and as the Physical.

“The Battle of the Minds (text from video down below)
Let’s say you are in a situation with which you are participating with another human being. And you within yourself react to the situation of and the human being or just the situation or just the human being – realize that in and at that moment of reaction within yourself you are enslaved to the situation, you are enslaved to the human being and you enslaved your own participation within the situation and with the human being. In other words: when you react within yourself you are less than the mind, less than the situation, less than your participation, and less than the human being and less than the experience of the entirety of the moment.”

Blogging my mess here

Points I am gonna deconstruct is my Design of Reaction as Polarity Enslavement here – starting point within and as self honesty. My main trigger points are in the house here – the same designs playing out we designed over time within the first relationships we have had in this world. The mind needs relationships to manifest itself.

Within reacting we allow and accept the mind abuse and destroy true self value as who we REALLY are as equal as one as Life as all Here – within reacting we allow and accept the mind abuse and destroy the physical, which is being reflected to us as us by the world.

Re-acting or answering

You can act in two ways: one is reacting, the other is answering.
Reaction comes from your conditionings of the past; it is automated. Answering you do from within your presence, your awareness; it is not automated.
Being equal and one – others representing my lost particles
I stop within myself this stupid reacting to the being I’m living with here. I stop reacting within myself to him not picking himself up to see for self what is here to work with therefor I do not pick myself up and forgive myself for what is coming up within the mind. I stop allowing and accepting myself to fuck myself ‘having to speak up’ about the stuff that needs to be done, therefor I stop this nonsense – this most times happened / happening on saturdays where we both had together do the physical things in and around the house. This seemed a huge point within and without in which I now can see: I stop getting frustrated with myself over another person, that does not stand up within self and see I as my mind have created this enslavement within my mind in the first place. Within reacting I am giving my power away to something or someone outside myself. That’s insanity – till here and no further.

Video The Solution of Action as Self Movement 

The Design of Verbal Diarrhea

Another point is when I am speaking to this house partner on the matter of the Desteni material and tools I kind of wanted / forced him to study and apply the tools for himself as well. He does read articles as I ask him to ‘as a good slave becomes’ – but only then – so I let go here, I self have to self realise first. I don’t know when it’s his time. Most people I will meet are not realising self awareness, self honesty, self responsibility so I let go of my spite = hate =  fear. I am the answer.

When I react within myself I am less than the mind, less than the situation, less than my participation, and less than the human being and less than the experience of the entirety of the moment.

I stop reacting to the sounds this housepartner produces because I know it is my ‘energy’, my thought-emotion construct behind – I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear ‘(t)his energy’ I projected on the other being here and breathe through those compound sounds resonating through my ears as fears. Only through applying self forgiveness and self correction my crystallized Mind System Design of Reaction will be able to be removed unconditionally, explode so-to-spaek and be released from my human physical body. I correct myself. I am silence.

I stop this Battle of the Minds. I can’t yet write this out fully… just want to start seeing into this as this correlates to my childhood relationship memories I can’t see quite clear . This is a process. It’s a principle of self responsibility, standing up within myself, stopping reactions immediately, forgiving the person, forgiving myself for not standing up the first time. It’s a process to correct our past time line.

Stopping the mind through simple living principles:

  • Breath in equality and oneness
  • I work with what is here
  • What is best for all
  • Self responsiblity

Reaction as Proof of life versus Breath is Life as who we really are

The other day at work we had this short communication on communication which I start here writing out:

I stated “Reacting is not communicating” on which this being expressed an “owe” and said I have to clarify this for myself first – this is an other blog all together.

Mind-Possessions: In moments when we accept/allow ourselves to have our thoughts run away with us – backchat conversations towards others within blame/spite/comparison/jealousy/revenge that accumulate a reaction-charge of emotions and feelings within self that take-over to such an extent where we yell in our minds, yell with screams/shouts and can manifest consequence to the extent of physical-abuse. The state of the world/humanity is an example of the extent to which accepted/allowed mind-possession has been taken and we’re more than capable of assisting/supporting ourselves to stop it from having to create consequence to the point of no return. Assist/support self to stop the mind of thoughts and energies and so possessions in such moments of conflict/resistance, to be able to direct/deal-with or face inner and outer conflict with common-sense, self honesty, stability and self-responsibility. Join us at Desteni and write/forgive yourself out of possession / mind.

To be followed…

What is Best for All Life —

Get real common sense —

Desteni mathematics —

DIP – Stop Being Hard on Self, Change in and as a Gentle Agreement with Self

“Understand that – to assist and support self within stopping the existence of self within the definition of ‘Life’ being that of having a Personality that define self as being ‘Individual’ within the living of self as a Ego-Persona of Mind – the definition that is infused/amalgamated within/as self through this ‘Tree of Life’-System = is to investigate and identify ‘personality-definitions’ self… has accepted as self within the definition of ‘who I am’ that is lived as self through the Mind Consciousness System. This is done through observing/remem­bering one’s grandparents and parents – that will reflect to self personality-definitions self has copied from them, that self is currently existing as. Personality will be seen within, for example behaviour, mannerism, physical-actions, speech, body-language etc. – all such traits which form the entire definition of self, self exist as through the Mind, reflected from one’s parents and grandparents. To stop existing as such habits of manifested personality-traits defined as ‘living’ ‘life’ –

but manifest self equal and one as all here as self-expression and actually live as Life equal and one as all.”

Winged – Sharing Daily Activities: System Removals

That’s what I did when I was a child observing my grandparents on the sundays after church visists. What in them is what’s in me – I don’t know exactly when I realised these matters, but quite a long time ago. Not that I knew how to remove these transferred / copied systems of survival to change myself until the material and tools presented by Desteni.

My fathers’ father for instance was quite ‘hard’ (see the hardening system – on himself as on others. “Zwaar op de hand” in dutch – “aan den lijve ondervonden” translates in I found it to my cost. Granddad had eleven sons and one daughter – the youngest child. What I saw was competition amongst most of my uncles especially on topics of science, knowledge and information of this world, which I knew from John in the bible was “not to accept”. But yeah who was I to speak? Allways listening I became a walking encyclopedia destroying true self value and not wanting to be like that at the same time, through which I infact created a polarity within myself.  There are more systems within me I am not aware of yet, because when we are naught we have already the unconscious system downloaded within us and while we grow up we adopt till the age of seven all we have had in our environments to become perfectly enslaved systems in the system / matrix. (As how Anu and his friends had wanted and created human beings to be controlled and enslaved to dig up the gold from within the earth). This is how we come to program self witihn the system to become the system we have currently become. “Knowledge and information of this world is the power to abuse our essence as who we are as equality and oneness of Life”. This disease / machine on Earth has to stop HERE!

In the Desteni ‘I’ Process (DIP) we learn to deconstruct the Mind Consciousness System Components as there are thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, pictures. To remove self-doubt and build self trust through specific self forgiveness on shit that comes up from within in the mind layers.

Here’s how I stop – stopping the mind, learning to be self-directive, self-effective, self-trust.

1. Living Self honesty equal and one as all.

2. Application of Self forgiveness whenever a thought, feelings and/or emotion of the mind comes up to be able to immediately stop participating in the mind and therefor feeding the mindsystem in yourself as in the global system (matrix).

3. Focussing on every breath here, to be able to stay here as breath and to realise that all which is real is me here in every moment of breath – that whatever goed around in my head as the mind is not real.

4. Writing because in writing I assist me through seeing myself straight in front of me in words and through applying self forgiveness on emotions, feelings, thoughts and / or memories whilst writing.


How to practically, effectively apply Self-Forgiveness to release the crystallized system-designs from within our human physical bodies – Veno (see Desteni articles)

Through speaking extremely specifically Self Forgivenesses aloud the crystals we have formed within our human physical bodies will explode to free ourselves from the mind.

Crystal exploding in slow motion

Into a Gentle Agreement with Self —

To Change the unequal Money System —

It’s inevitable for All to See Real —

Transcending Go(o)d the System through the principle What is Best for All

Making sense – seeing common sense?

This morning after 5 and half hours rest and standing up I was annoyed with myself (emotion), there was a stream of little thoughts and emotions of the physical mind popping up and so did quite a lot self forgivenesses in the category letting go of bodily / vanity shit mostly, how I perceive myself. For a while here now I’ve been stopping the thinking game after waking up and in stead standing up in and as breath here as who I am.

OK – an hour later I went to work and realized on the bike I forgot to drink a pot of water (thought) – I can’t remember when I did not start the day with drinking water – I did not freak and breathed through. Wow – this was a cool point to move through as I had become very afraid (emotion) of having to leave the house without having drunk my water.

Today we were with the three of us in the seminar cloakroam. I took the Tablet (with the Desteni lessons) with me in case I had a moment to read, I took it out and one of the female beings asks me what lessons do I study then. This time I did not start on speaking about Desteni! I got a lot of questions in between we were working and was able to answer them most by standing as the principle of what is best for all. She thanked me three times for shattering “her imagined world” and I thanked her for her interest.

At home here I have been pushing myself working together as one. My partner and me went into a lot of resistance for the last six (sex = friction within the physical body) years whenever we had to work together – I would become aware of his resistance not wanting to work together on which I was reacting heavily (parent relationship pattern) – in this I have accepted and allowed myself to deprive myself extremely of my strenght.

Last week I started pushing this principle of doing what is best for all through as myself as at my work – with another collegue and we could understand eachother in what has to be done practically without going into inner reactions.

For all I see that the principle of doing for eachother what’s best for all at all times will clear the ego / mind. It becomes clear where there are my / others personal issues to sort out.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be emotionally annoyed with myself in stead of being comfortable here with myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to have become afraid of not being able to drink water.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that sex is creating friction is creating energy through which I go out of alignment with the physical.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be sad of the consequence of sex.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself into thinking that I ought to have sex.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that action – reaction = attracting – pushing off.

I stop creating friction within my mind as destruction of myself in the act of thinking and/ or participating in sex or masturbation.

I stop creating energy from friction from thinking within my mind as the destruction of myself.

Best for All is stopping the destructive nature of the mind consciousness system on the Physical Universe as who we really are!


  • BEST FOR ALL – Equal Life for All — How can we not see?
  • BETTER – self through self transcending the mind system
  • GOOD – we can transcend Go(o)d the System in doing for eachother what is best for All at all times!





Living principles

Self development —

Re-education —

Fear of the large hadron collider = Fear of Death / Loss

Slaves to fear – human beings as the large hadron collider as the collision of particles inside self as the mind.

We fear, therefor we think.

We create what we are, therefor we are equal and one as the large hadron collider.

We have allways been dead

because we have never actually woken up from the dream / thought, we are sleep walking,

we walk and exist in the head as thoughts, feelings and/or emotions, therefor we are zombies –

those are characteristics of robots – the living dead so-to-speak. Sounds familiar?

The core of religions spoke thereof.

This was a message thousands of years ago – today the mess age is even bigger,

because of the allowed and accepted beLIEf that thoughts, feelings and emotions are real,

in stead of being pre-programmed mind consciousness system placements as who we have become.

Get real – stop thinking! Become self honesty as self perfection.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become possessed by thoughts, feelings and emotions in stead of me directing me as who I really am in and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become captivated by the pictures I see in this three dimensional holographic pictured world in stead of realising completely that what I see is not what I see and to stay here as Breath.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to become subconsciously directed by ‘bad’ memories in stead of letting go of experiences unconditionally for they are not who I am as Life Here.

“Breathing keeps you here as the physical as the basic foundation forms from which your form is formed.” – Bernard Poolman

Re-educate yourself —

Develop self —

Get real – become common sense —